In this time of social media and everyone trying to outdo one another on how perfectly they can portrait their lives, it can be hard to allow oneself to answer honestly when someone asks you how you are.
I struggled with that for many years. Wanting to not lay my problems on anyone else, just because I knew how hard life can be at times for everyone, so I didn’t think they needed my problems on top of their own. So whenever I would have a bad day (or a bad week, or month) I would isolate myself. I would disconnect from the people that I love in an attempt to not burden them, when in fact all I ended up doing was making them really worried and even angry.
I’ve gotten better over the years. I tend to answer honestly whenever I feel like I’m not doing okay, and it’s such a relief to be able to say it without feeling ashamed. Because why on earth should we feel ashamed about how we feel? Our feelings are so real, no matter how weird they are. There’s no wrong way to feel, but there are wrong ways to act upon feelings.
Lately I’ve been feeling a little down. Not everyday, and not all day when it first hits, but it comes in tiny waves. I have a little bit of an idea of what’s causing it whenever it shows up, and I don’t like it. It reminds me too much of times where I felt lost. Those moments a long time ago when I hit bottom. It’s far from being that, so don’t worry! I’m not falling into a depression, or crying out for help or sympathy here. I know I’ll be fine, and I know that I just need to get better at exercising my body and taking care of my mind than I’ve been doing lately.
This is just me sharing a gloomier side. One that doesn’t come forth very often, but is just as much a part of me whenever it arrives. And I just wanted to reach out and remind you all that it’s okay to not be okay all of the time.
I need to go and meditate a bit now, and I really look forward to it ❤️ It’s been way too long.
Hope you’re all having a wonderful day! And if not, then I hope you find a way to make it better❤️